The Glittery Sheep-Unicorn-Galaxies of Being
Sitting with a full heart, feeling so expanded, so unified, so exquisitely glittering that I and it could burst at the seams. Meanwhile, the rest of my physical body is feeling a bit off, tired and experiencing a light fever (though I’m not tripping, nor delirious:)), and with my mind, I’m catching up on the latest national and international news. What’s so beautiful is that there is no need to deny either what the body is up to, nor the frenetic topsy-turviness of the ordinary world. Both can be there and do their thing. When I get identified, I feel a contraction from fear and not-knowing. But it’s getting easier to notice, and stay with the deeper reality.
Last week I attended my bi-yearly Diamond Approach retreat together with about 120 other ongoing group members. This European group has been in process for 11 years. I joined them six years ago when I came back from the US and left the two on-going groups I was part of in California. The theme and the wisdom vehicle we explored this time was about vulnerability and humanness (there is a theme for each retreat, following a curriculum that slowly allows the ego structure to relax and become more transparent to being). It was an extraordinary retreat, challenging, of course, as it always is, and so liberating. I’m also part of a Mutual Awakening community by Patricia Albere, which is about meeting in a unified field with other practitioners on Zoom, looking deeply into a stranger’s eyes all the way through to the source of everything, and thereby discovering the vastness together.
This evening, I and another woman were experiencing colorful unicorns on a grassy field, turning into sheep, turning into stars, turning into galaxies. It was so trippy, so FUN and I felt so relaxed because it was a deep sense of home-coming. What also became clear is that this particular flavor of the experience, and its itness is feminine. It’s about movement, expansion and creation. Sometimes it shifts into stillness and silence, which feels like the masculine, and it’s sweet to witness, but it’s not what my essence is made of.
Sitting in wonder over what is possible and I long for inviting more people, more women, but also men, to experience this absolutely magical and trippy richness of life and Being. And I feel tremendous gratitude to those I can learn from, to those who I can frolic together with in this reality and in the boundless dimensions, and to life and Being it- and Herself.
