My red thread

My soul’s journey follows this red thread; Mysticism, Leadership, Women, the Feminine, My Own and other Women’s Turn-On, Embodiment and Sexuality, Truth, Shadows, Trauma & the all-encompassing sparkling, velvety juicy magic of Existence.

Besides the photos above, which chronicle some of my story, below are a few more ways to describe myself:

• I’m a Mystic at my core, a lover of the mystical unknown, the vast Absolute, and the juicy embodied divine feminine, though I’ve struggled for most of my life to own and share that knowing.

• I’m Swedish, currently living in Stockholm, Sweden, and I grew up in Västerås, a city 110 km from Stockholm. I’m also heart-related to the United States, having lived 10 years in Los Angeles, 5 years in San Francisco, and earlier 1,5 years in Albuquerque. English is my love-language, but I’m starting to appreciate the melodious earthiness of Swedish.

• After a couple of rough years, I am standing in myself at a new level. I’m still figuring out what that means, but it tastes like sovereignty.

• For more than half of my life, I disliked being a woman and hated my body, I looked down on other women and I despised the feminine, deeming it weak and even useless. It’s been a long journey of reclaiming my body, and learning to love myself as a woman, my femininity and my jewel (pussy), and as I continue my process, I’ve supported other women on a similar journey.

• I love cats because they rule, and dogs because they love. And anything or anyone that has soul, passion, curiosity, individuality, playfulness and a big heart. I fell in love with Burning Man in 2004, the nerdy geek finding her playful tribe (but later got turned off because the individuality was not yet individuated), but I still love misfits and those who believe life is mischievious at its core, the cosmic joke that finds it ecstatic playing human.

• I believe we have an Eros deficit and a playfulness forgetting. We also forget about the magic of our existence, a magic I believe myself to be in service of. I love to remind myself and others of how the feminine is about doing the funky and sensual catwalk at the edges of the Absolute. And how pussy power is the biggest creative force in the Universe.

• I have a MSc in International Economics, and I have led and built a number of businesses and organizations, and been on several boards. I’m still in love with entrepreneurs and entrepreneurship, which I’ve supported and been myself for most of my life. And I’m still a nerd. If you want to know who I was when I was still focused on performing:), read more here.

• Leadership has been a life-long interest with a focus on self-leadership. However, 99,9% of all leadership trainings are based on men and the masculine. And while there obviously are important general aspects to learn in terms of people and profits, there is no understanding of what it means for women to lead and stay close to their presence and desires, without burning out. Knowing that many women’s nervous systems, in particular under stress, operate almost in the opposite way than men’s do, and that we as women need embodiment, presence and pussy power in order to not leave ourselves, there is a big need for an alternative approach to feminine leadership.

• I became an executive, business and leadership coach in 2004 in the US and have worked with top leaders in Silicon Valley, Hollywood and in Sweden. My specialty has been high-growth entrepreneurs and CEOs, but I’ve also worked with yoga teachers and even an exotic dancer in LA (I helped her realize her dream of starting a pole-dancing business). My focus for the past 20 years have been women leaders, and I’ve worked with hundreds and supported thousands.

• In the past two years I’ve studied trauma, individually and collectively, and in particular how trauma impacts women and women’s nervous systems, so today I bring that awareness into my courses and coaching. It’s not my focus or my expertise, but it’s important for me to be trauma-informed, especially since almost all women who take my courses have experiences of sexual boundary-violations and shame. Including myself.

• While I need to meditate, yoga and do inquiry at least once a day to make world become clear, and filled with magic again, I have an equal need of shaking my naked booty to deep tribal house, sultry seductive tones and wonky off the charts beats.

• Having learned that politics and activism have been in my family (on my mother’s side) since the 1870s, it’s in my blood to be updated on global and local geo-politics. After years of activism and believing it was my job to change the world, however, I’ve now traded my sword with sultry soul presence, music and dance.

• Applying the principals of metamodernism/integral/spiral dynamics, I seek out the other perspective if only one is presented, seeking integration, and as an eight on the Enneagram, I find it challenging when people tell me what to think (or feel). My path, being a student of the Diamond Approach for the past ten years, is the experiential truth that resides in the body, and yet is not of the body. I try to hold the turn of events lightly, increasingly moving towards the felt understanding of being in the world, but not of it.

What to expect from working with me

I offer presence, inspiration, realness and an invitation to wake up to your life-force; to who you truly are. For me truth is essential, and I’m not a BS-type of person. While I will do my best to act with integrity and compassion, I will also challenge you to become more present and more real. If diving deep and exploring the felt truth within you is not within your comfort zone, we are not going to be a good fit. But if you are willing to deep-dive, even when it’s scary, maybe with a twinkle in your eye, I just might be your person.

I don’t promise results, and am not interested in supporting you to reach your goals; that is not in the business I’m in. What I do know, though, is that when embodiment, truth, power and pleasure becomes part of your Soul’s journey, hand in hand with Eros - it will be the ride of your life-time - and for that I would love to be of service to you and for what wants to unfold within you and in all the endeavors linked to your flow.